I've been slow to post as of late, as you probably have notice. Those of you very longtime readers from Eventing-A-Gogo will remember when I used to post every day, or at least every other day.... you know, back in the days when I had interesting things to post about. These days, I don't have much material, and I don't have much motivation either.
Life goes on with Bay Girl much as it has. She's bagging up now, and is absolutely enormous. She is not very happy with me as of late seeing as I've dewormed her and given her several of her pre-foaling vaccines, but all is usually forgiven with cookies. Other than that, I have nothing new to report, because I've done little with her.
There's been plenty going on with the Sophie deal, but I've not written about that either. Why? Probably because it gets very tiring explaining myself and my reasons to everyone who thinks I know what I want, and that this mare isn't it. I had the finances and the eye to pick out a very nice horse (the one gelding I looked at just sold to Gina Miles, and the other mare I looked at is at a barn featured in Eventing Nation just last week)... and I picked Sophie.
I also don't have the heart or strength in me to stand up to the angry hordes who will unleash their rage upon me when I mention what my eventual plans with this broodie are - specifically that, breeding - and I feel that writing about it will end up just making me feel rather bad about myself. Those of you from Eventing-A-Gogo may remember all the outraged backlash I received when I mentioned breeding Gogo, who was a far superior mare to Sophie if we are all to be honest with ourselves. As just a few examples, try here, and here, and here, and here, and me finally losing my marbles in frustration here. The comments on all of those posts hurt ya'll. They hurt. They really made me feel awful about myself, which is such a crying shame... I don't know any of these people in real life, why would their opinions make me feel like such a terrible person? Apparently, I am not made of as tough of stuff as I thought.
Which leads me back to Sophie. Yes, she is coming home with me. No, she is not here yet. No, I'm not sure what she'll be capable of in the longterm. Yes, it is assuredly worth it to see. And even though it almost pains me to put it out there in public, yes, I have plans to breed her at some point in the future. There, I said it. Tear away, naysayers. Hurt me to the core, I am ready.
This, of course, has led me to this problem: do I or do I not start a new blog for Sophie? Do I write publicly about my endeavors with her, or not?
Let's face it. We don't have the same sort of goals and message going that Gogo and I had. We probably never will. It will probably never be interesting to read. It will probably not have much of a point. I will probably get continual crap for my decisions. So do I bother putting it all out in public?
I'm undecided as of yet. What do you think? And be honest.